I spent years being unhappy with my appearance, weight and eating habits. It felt horrible to watch my life passing me by because I was uncomfortable with the way I looked. I rarely socialized because I didn’t want to be seen. It was really a sad existence.
Over the years I had struggled with two things; an addiction to sugar and weight gain. They went hand and hand. The large qualities of sugar I ate would often lead me to gain weight. I would lose the weight often on a diet that I felt deprived on then eventually go back to binging on foods that would cause me to gain weight again.
Chunky Monkey, Girl Scout Samoas and Princess Cake were my favorites. I would have dessert with breakfast, lunch and dinner. If I bought a box of cookies I would eat them within a day. I could never get enough! I would eat sugar after the point I wanted to, often until I got a headache or felt sleepy. It was horrible and I was gaining lots of weight. I was at my wits end and needed to change the way I was eating. I started by cutting back on refined sugar, honey, maple syrup and agave.
I was able to have sustainable recovery from sugar once I addressed the underlying causes for my addiction. First there was the emotional part, I found that I craved sugar whenever I was upset, anxious or stressed. I used it to soothe myself in those tough times. I found that the awareness around my intentions for wanting to eat sugar helped me immensely. When I found myself craving it I would ask myself, do I want this because my boss just told me I did something wrong? Or did someone just hurt my feelings? Often the answer was yes. Once I had that information I knew that eating a cookie, cake or chocolate was not going to fix anything but rather taking a walk or meditating would be a better response.
Once I had a greater understanding of the emotional cause of my addiction, I realized that I was suffering from an overgrowth of candida. It is a type of yeast that lives within the body that causes you to crave sugar when it is overgrown. When I say crave, I mean crave. When I walked by cake it was all I could think about the rest of the day. Something had to be done. So I immersed myself in research on candida and how to get rid of it. There was a good deal of trial and error but after a year I successfully treated the candida. What worked for me was probiotics, antifungals and a diet rich in vegetables and low in refined carbohydrates and sugar. Finally I had success! My sugar addiction is no longer ruling my life and my weight is in a normal range.